I thought I was okay until I saw a certain someone this morning. I'm really really really trying to be happy, but things just don't seem to be working out for me right now.

This is seriously my first heartbreak and it's absolutely AWFUL. I can't stand it. I dread going to school just because I know I'll have to see her, then after I see her I automatically am in the worst mood ever and I can't enjoy the rest of my day. I just want to be able to hang out with my brother and sister and nephew and enjoy my life.

I need to get over this. I HAVE to get over this. Fast.